Social Media Addiction is here
Oh goodness.
I have struggled with this for years now. When I began A Catholic Convo on Instagram in March of 2017, I had no idea how many sins were on their way. I believed all I needed was to have Jesus focused media on Instagram and it would be a walk in the park. Unfortunately I fell deep into constant updating and bored scrolling daily if not hourly.
The shift began when I found myself reaching for the scroll before the creation. I had always been a creator but not anymore. It was more fun to lay down and not move while seeing beautiful things over and over and over.
Then my love began to shrivel. I saw women with model boyfriends, perfectly curated outfits walking the streets of God knows where. And because of my abandonment wound from childhood, the jealousy began to kick in. My (present) boyfriend was being sized up next to all these social media “realities” and I was questioning daily how my desires were actually being filled.
“Why can’t I have that?”
Despite God’s consistent peace in who my boyfriend is, I fostered these thoughts noting the fact that my life will be documented on social media for the foreseeable future. I took a serious look at how dependent I was and hated what I saw. If you’re reading this and struggling with the same thing, Satan is using your desires and leaving you unsatisfied. Here are a couple things to remind yourself of and maybe letter on some beautiful paper or a crusty old sticky note:
It is not bad that I desire community, beauty, and connection.
I am not bad.
My desires can be filled by Jesus Christ.
My reality is more beautiful and perfect than any other captured reality I see on social media.
I’m not here standing with answers, but I am excited to push forward alongside you.
If you want to join my social media addiction Discord group, please do. I understand it’s a different form of social media but by nature, I find it much less addicting than Instagram since there are hardly any images or videos, just conversations.
On Discord I hold monthly livestreams where I talk about my struggles, pray with you, and hear about what’s working in your life.
Please know that I am struggling with you and ready to be vulnerable. Jesus wants more for us, our lives, and social media.
Let’s end in a quick prayer: Lord Jesus Christ you dominate my heart and I ask that You convince my will of true freedom. Please help me to live life more fully, scroll less, and pray more. I love You with everything I have. You, not social media You. And I love myself. Not social media me, actual beautiful me.
